Thursday, October 13, 2011

Tired of running, thinking, fighting around and not making sense

I've been studying all day today for our upcoming respiratory exam for med surg. My brain is sooo toasted and I am really praying that all I studied will stick in my head because I really need to do good on this exam and the other exam after that.

My life right now is so plainly routine and really stressful. I know I am almost done with the program but right now... What I am feeling, this feeling of being stressed almost 97% of the time really sucks.

Hence, getting irritated really easily, grumpy and insecured. Dang, I hate feeling like this and no matter how hard I tried to stop feeling like this, I am so busy almost all day trying to survive the stress of school and work that I do not have the time to look at myself and plead "stop feeling this way."

Sometimes, I think to myself, "maybe I am allowing these feelings to linger around me because I am entitled to?" hmmm.. Doesn't make sense.

Moving on....

I know I am not the prettiest nor the brightest person in the world and I know that I cannot please everybody. I know that there are people who will stop and look at me and judge me becauseI know that reality is like that. I cannot change how other people think because they are entitled to their opinions/perceptions.

The worse part is "I know all of these" but why am I acting/thinking this way.

Time to call it a night.





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